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Rowan did a reading for Matt and I. Mine was mostly positive, but Matt's was kind of negative. He was in a funk for some time before I convinced him it was only cards. Nothing bad would happen, and I would never leave him. I'm not that much of a fool. I know he is mine and that our souls are meant to be together forever.
Tyson was teaching me Accio which should be fun. Can't wait to use that on Matt. Of course only for the good reasons. I tried learning Duro but it's a bit hard right now. I wish I knew more advanced conjur but I seem to miss all the classes to do so. I guess I should be content with my cushions and low grade chairs. Matt's once again excelling at something that I'm not so good at.
Matt's nemesis and him had another fight. This one seemed fairer from what I could tell, but to be fair I only saw part of it before I ran away. I hate fights. I really do. I don't think that's ever going to change.
I'm still on vacation but Matt seems reluctant to take me to Paris. What's up with that? I guess I could suggest some other place to go. Mai is going to get two tattoos, too. I'm proud of her but I wouldn't be able to go myself. I hate needles.
I had another dream where Matt and I were flying over China. It was so much fun, the best part was that I was riding double with him. I bet that was harder for him to balance but it was a ton of fun. The feel of the wind in my hair, the scent of him so close...
I got a whole bunch of scrolls from Diagon Alley to look at ring designs. I wonder if I can commission Mai to make a dress for me. Of course, Matt hasn't even asked yet, but I know he will. So is it a bad thing to daydream?
A little muggle music clipping is added:
(With the lyrics written in bright purple) I lived my life in shadow Never the sun on my face It didn't seem so sad though I figured that was my place Now I'm bathed in light Something just isn't right
I'm under your spell How else could it be Anyone would notice me? It's magic, I can tell How you set me free Brought me out so easily
I saw a world enchanted Spirits and charms in the air I always took for granted I was the only one there But your power shone Brighter than any I've known
I'm under your spell Nothing I can do You just took my soul with you You worked your charm so well Finally, I knew Everything I dreamed was true
You made me believe
The moon to the tide I can feel you inside
I'm under your spell Surging like the sea Pulled to you so helplessly I break with every swell Lost in ecstasy...
You make me com-plete You make me com-plete You make me com-plete You make me -"Under Your Spell" - Joss Wheadon
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Post subject: Re: Caitlyn's Journal
Posted: Sat Aug 01, 2009 7:38 am
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Rumors abound that Rowan is to be married at some point. i'm glad for her, even though I think Jinx is still really creepy. Most people would probally agree with me there. Matt refuses to take me to Paris though, I wonder what's up with that.
Lance has been using dark magic again and we are going to report him soon I hope. I don't really have to be there though, so I might not be. Hopefully we can make a good case. He threatened West last night after he sneezed in a potions room and Lance's girlfriend dumped water all over him and cast Silencio on him. That's not really nice. It's annoying but not as serious as the dark magic thing. Evidently he did it twice, both to Matt and Weston. So yea, that's probally what will get him more in trouble.
I'm enjoying this nice vacation away from books and otherstuff. though I still have to cooperate with curfew while being on the school grounds.
Matt is still the handsome knight to me he has always been. I swear the Quidditich games are making him even sexier and stronger. I'm sure he will be a wonderful player. It seems to make him happy. To be fair, I feel that mostly everyone else is pretty boring. With him I feel just right, everyone else it just feels wierd. Especially with some people as they have grown up. But that's life I guess.
Music club was a big hit, probally because Jacob showed up. But maybe people will come to the second meeting, when ever it might be. I managed to sneak out before anyone asked me what I did. I usually only sing for Mai and Matt these days. No one else seems to appreciate it. The new music rooms in the conservatory are nice, however. I could go there and play piano for hours.
A little animated drawing is underneath:
would be cool to be in a band though
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Zimarra
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Posted: Fri Aug 07, 2009 9:04 am
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Matt and I went to Egypt. Many times actually. The first time though he left me and when I woke up I was all alone. That was really scary and thankfully Zane saved me. The second time was more pleasant except I have a huge sunburn now since I didn't put any sunscreen on. No idea we were going since Marta just apperated us to the Nile River.
Matt and I wear matching pendants now. I love them, and him. Im just glad he likes his half. When it comes together, it spells out LOVE and glows. It also sends little rose scents through the room. But thats how I feel with him, like a rose always in bloom. Everything else seems faded when he's not around. I am so in love with him it just fills me up and blind to everything else.
The secret thing is done. I'm kind of sad to see it go but it had to. It was getting kind of annoying keeping it a secret anyways. I'm still on vacation too, I'm enjoying this nice loong break with just hanging out with friends. Though I'm worried about Mai. I hope she is ok.
I've been working out in the garden for awhile now, helping out Sprout. Oh, that reminds me. We went out during a full moon and Umbridge was there with a bunch of other students. She pissed off a centaur and it was dark and really scary. Thankfully Keef and Matt and Zane were there. I ran before I saw too much more of it. Wonder if people harvested plants like they were supposed to?
Oh yea. and of course I can't end this entry without saying it: <3 <3 <3 I love Matthew Pace! <3 <3 <3
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Zimarra
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Posted: Sun Aug 09, 2009 1:17 pm
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Something weird happened between Lily and Weston. Now Lily has to go to a trial thing. I don't think shell be sent to Azzy, shes only fourteen. Or will she? I guess that depends on the matter of the crime. Weston was acting strange though afterwards. He's an odd one.
Volt, my cousin is such a freaking flirt. I guess he and Lily are together now. I don't mind that part really at all, but just his flirting is something else. Kind of puts our family name in bad taste. But I guess that's what he's going to do, he'll do it.
I made a new dress for Misty and it looks pretty good. Not skimpy at all and very pretty on her. Sometimes I wish I were in RC so I could wear blue. Instead I'm stuck with yellow. At least I don't look like a banana like Volt did.
There was a huge rainstorm today so i snuck out and danced in-between the drops again. I love doing that. It makes me feel so alive. It just was missing Matt. Then it would have been ten times funner. But that's ok.
Journal? <3 <3 <3I love Matthew Pace <3 <3 <3
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Zimarra
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Posted: Thu Aug 13, 2009 6:38 pm
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Let's see. A lot has happened. Matt almost got turned into a plant due to Jinx, West got turned into the Hulk, and I got a stomach bug thingie that made me miss most of Music Club. Not that many people showed up this time. Turns out also there is a group of bad people around. I guess the best thing was the surprise party that people threw for me! I was totally not expecting that! Nope!
Otherwise I'm still on vacation, still haven't started my 5th year yet. You know what, I don't even mind either. I just like taking my time and enjoying my time here. I also don't really want to do my owls at the end of this year.
I love Matthew He's the best I could ever have! I love him forever!
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Posted: Wed Aug 19, 2009 7:15 am
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It's good to still be on vacation. Regardless a lot of things have happened like they always do. For one, Jason is now in St. Mungos. Again. He attacked Matt after stealing Matt's wand and then turned the firey blaze to himself. It was quite messy. I didn't like it at all. But Matt seems to be fine, got his wand back and it got all settled. Caiden took me out for a butterbeer afterwards because Matt was busy and it was just too scary. He's a nice guy, and he finally took off his hood so I could see his face. It's not that bad actually, I don't know why he goes around hooded. Guess it's the cool thing to do?
Matt got a new outfit. It looks pretty nice. I can't seem to find mine right now so I'm back in my robes. There's an odd comfort to them. Not very fashionable but they are comfortable. Matt's been hanging out with Kadaja a lot. I hear whispers that they have romantic feelings towards each other. I don't believe them, but I did feel slighted when he didn't even owl me when he was going out to Diagon with her. He said he wanted me to sleep, but the owl would have waited. I was actually awake too. But he says he loves me, and I don't think he's that kind of guy.
We are both growing older, we can be with who ever we want. But I still love him with all my heart, and want to marry him someday. I'm just glad he has friends he can hang out with. I wish I had more but it seems whenever they see Matt and me, they only see Matt. I love him though. 4 years with him, and I still want and need more. i can only hope he feels the same.
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Post subject: Re: Caitlyn's Journal
Posted: Fri Aug 21, 2009 8:59 pm
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If you love him, you'll let him go. Let him be free. Let him fly, and give him space to move.
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Posted: Sat Aug 22, 2009 2:56 pm
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I knew this would happen. Matt and I are no longer together. He said he wanted me to stop being hurt by the rumors and that he'd still be my bestest friend. But how? I don't know how. Something's changed in him. Something different and cold. I am left alone, my worst fear of all. I am still in shock myself at everything that has happened these past few days. Sometimes I wish it was just a nightmare or a bad dream. But I pinch myself and know it's real. It's faded. The fires were too hot and it couldn't last. My dreams are shattered and I sit in the wreckage. Alone. I will go on, and so will him. Freedom for him. That's what he wanted in the end anyways.
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Posted: Sun Aug 23, 2009 8:29 am
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Pain. It blossoms through me like flowers do in the spring. There are cracks in my soul like never before. I am broken; I do not think glue will fasten it back together. it is true he was my world. Now I don't know anything anymore. Nothing seems the same, most likely because it's not. His questions, the ring on my hand. Haunting memories. Space will tell, time will heal. To grow once again one must cut off some leaves. In time i can see him as friend. For now, however, it is too hard.
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Posted: Sun Aug 23, 2009 8:20 pm
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I did something today. Kind of bad. I ran out of Lupin's class. I was hooded, and I dont think anyone knew it was me. But when I ran out I went straight to the girls room and cried. I have got to get over this, why am I so weak? I really didn't deserve him then, only wasting his time.
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Posted: Wed Aug 26, 2009 10:00 am
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Song lyrics are posted in:
In my hands A legacy of memories I can hear you say my name I can almost see your smile Feel the warmth of your embrace But there is nothing but silence now Around the one I loved Is this our farewell?
Sweet darling you worry too much, my child See the sadness in your eyes You are not alone in life Although you might think that you are
Never thought This day would come so soon We had no time to say goodbye How can the world just carry on? I feel so lost when you are not at my side But there is nothing but silence now Around the one I loved Is this our farewell?
Sweet darling you worry too much, my child See the sadness in your eyes You are not alone in life Although you might think that you are
So sorry your world is tumbling down I'll watch you through these nights Rest your head and go to sleep Because my child, this is not our farewell. This is not our farewell.
-Our Farewell (Within Temptation)
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Post subject: Re: Caitlyn's Journal
Posted: Tue Sep 01, 2009 6:40 pm
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I spoke to some people, hung out with some more. It all seems a blurr however. Ricnan and West seem to think that Caiden likes me. I don't know, I'm not really ready for any kind of relationship right now. I'm just too scarred up inside and not worth it.
But I went to London for a quick visit and when I came home mom said that I should start fresh and she gave me money to get a haircut. So i did. It's really light and fluffy and shorter than I'm used to. Shorter showers for sure. I don't think people really can recognize me now. But that's ok. It's good. Am I always going to keep it short? I don't know, probally not. Right now is a good length so far. Also bought some dark lipstick and eyeshadow. I like it. I wouldn't say I'm turning goth but it just echoes what I feel like inside.
Been hanging out in the library a lot. It's just a nice quiet place to think and be alone. Seems I'm pretty good at that lately, being alone. I smile and try to be happy but inside I'm all messed up. I guess I learned that from Rowan. i'm really not better, but I'm just happy enough for most people to just move on. I don't want to be a downer for other people so I just keep it all to myself. Should have done that from the beginning.
I miss him though, but probally he is all over me by now. He has plenty of other pretty snowflakes to chose from.
Safer here in my little world.
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Post subject: Re: Caitlyn's Journal
Posted: Sat Sep 05, 2009 11:31 am
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Still healing, still lost. Despite what Mel and West said, it's all my fault. there is nothing more. It's a deep scar within my heart, people may think I'm over-reacting. They don't understand anything. I don't think anyone does.
Lyrics posted in: My heart is low, My heart is so low As only a woman's heart can be As only a woman, as only a woman's As only a woman's heart can know
The tears that drip from my bewildered eyes Taste of bittersweet romance You're still in my hopes You're still on my mind oh And even though I manage on my own
My heart is low, My heart is so low As only a woman's heart can be As only a woman, only a woman's As only a woman's heart can know
When restless eyes reveal my troubled soul And memories flood my weary heart I mourn for my dreams I mourn for my wasted love And while I know that I'll survive alone
My heart is low, My heart is so low As only a woman's heart can be As only a woman, only a woman's As only a woman's heart can know
"Only a Woman's Heart" - Mary Black (+Emmalou Harris)
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Posted: Sat Sep 05, 2009 10:18 pm
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I don't believe it but Melissa sweeped me off my feet. I didn't think I'd wind up with a girl, but I really like her. No I think I'm falling in love with her. She's sweet and today we watched the meteor shower together. It was so romantic. Going slowly, but I'm going to make her some quiche. My second chance. It's still a whirlwind.
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Post subject: Re: Caitlyn's Journal
Posted: Sun Sep 06, 2009 8:49 pm
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It seems a recipe is posted into the journal:
PREP TIME 10 Min COOK TIME 40 Min READY IN 50 Min
INGREDIENTS (Nutrition)
* 4 eggs * 475 ml half-and-half cream * 0.8 g salt * 0.6 g white pepper * 0.4 g ground nutmeg * 115 g Jarlsberg cheese, shredded * 55 g mozzarella cheese, shredded * 1 (9 inch) unbaked pie shell
DIRECTIONS
1. Preheat oven to 425 degrees F (220 degrees C). 2. In a large bowl, whisk together eggs and half-and-half. Season with salt, white pepper and nutmeg. Place shredded Jarlsberg and mozzarella in the pie shell. Pour egg mixture over cheese. 3. Bake in preheated oven for 15 minutes. Reduce heat to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C), and bake for 25 minutes, or until crust is golden and filling is set. Allow to set 5 to 10 minutes before serving.
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